Last year I joined a meetup group that discusses and explores metaphysical topics such as astrology, energy healing, divination, etc. My sister is fond of calling it my “cult”.
Going into the end of spring I stopped attending the meetups as my focus has been more on exploring my spirituality rather than my psychic abilities. Yesterday I received an email from the organizer of the meetup group. She sent a message out to the members of the meetup regarding a change in direction she is considering.
This direction appears to be influenced by a spiritual challenge she has been having. She feels there is merit to engaging in acts kindness and compassion, yet she is jaded by not seeing the kindness returned… the more you give of yourself, the more they take.
My first impulse was to email her and address each statement with a bulleted well-thought-out answer. If the answers were adroit enough she could see the sunshine beam through the rain clouds. She would be mesmerized by each flower and each raindrop. Seeing criminals arrested would magically transform into puppies playing.
Again, my answers were perfectly designed for me. For the person that has lived the exact same life path as myself.
Near the end of her message the meetup organizer stated that she wanted to explore these issues through a change in direction of future meetups. She would like to see us explore topics such as morality, healing, karma. I am currently at deliberation as to whether I want to attend. If I go with the intention of “imparting my wisdom unto all those in attendance” I’m fueled by hubris, directing the mismatched minister to address life paths that I have never traveled, that I myself am not on.
I have to be careful not to make the assumption that our meetup organizer is “broken”. I would do well to remind myself that because she seems to be crying out, she has not asked for any help. I do not need to attempt to rescue a person that has not asked to be rescued. It’s akin to seeing a person flailing about in the lake so you go in to save them from drowning, only to find out the person has an odd swim stroke. I need to put my own oxygen mask on before attempting to help someone else put theirs on.
All in all, her words are admittedly compelling. I am curious to see what direction these future meetups do indeed take. I do like the direction she is proposing for the course of this meetup group. I may not become the member with perfect attendance, but I may just attend a meetup here and there. I will bring my presence without the intention of saving anyone or trying to achieve enlightenment. So I am going to take the advice of my own personal minister, as he often tells me:
Expectation often breeds disappointment.